You won't understand either,

So i seize to talk.

Call me a coward,

Or perhaps proud

But my pain, won't understand

Blooding is oozing

Pain inflicted in me

Yet I say I'm ok

And pretend to put a smile

Sometimes we laugh,

Making jokes 'till late

Drinking and eating

But I still feel alone

I wish to die

Slow, painlesa death

Deep down in my sleep

To wake up and see myself dead

Not to talk,

Not to laugh

Not to cry

Silence!

But this are just illusions

Chains of loneliness holding me

Tightly breaking my soul

Forcing my inner to give in

If only you could understand,

And feel my pain

And bare my pains

Then the world apart

Will be one whole ball

They celebrate when the sun rises

Yet my burden of sadness increases

My sack of pain becomes heavier

With lots of condemnations

Lots of judgement.

Am alone

©lewis wamwanda